In April, I continued to note continuously, off-cushion, under Ron’s guidance. My goals at this time were to get Technical 4th Path and then AF as quickly as possible to ‘delete’ bipolar disorder. There was a small amount of fireworks in the month; I recorded heavy A&P experiences and dramatic fruitions, as well as deep seated restlessness. More so, however, it was marked by a sense of boredom and uneventful neutrality as I went about my days doing the constant noting technique I had crafted for myself.
On the 11th of the month, it felt like a bubble of attention and clinging inside my skull cavity popped. The next day, I was standing in my backyard when an even bigger bubble extended from inside my torso, out of my body, to include the entire sense field. It felt very significant at the time. I couldn’t tell at the time, but this was the Technical 3rd Path moment.
I met with Ron on the 23rd, who said that I was exhibiting symptoms of Review A after I spent 45 minutes noting out loud for him. He guided me through soft or fabricated versions of the Formless and Pure Land Jhanas, which was a unique and powerful experience. My ability to “ride the jhanic arc” in a soft and fabricated way was greatly enhanced after the Technical 3rd Path event. I could access an equivalent version of “Nirodha Lite” as well.
Also, there was a slight upgrade in sensory clarity and a slight reduction in restlessness, as had been the case with the previous 2 shifts. Finally, the experience of Kundalini changed from being a tight, jarring series of shocks to a warm and wide flow up through the crown.
Ron explained to me that there are 2 possibilities with regards to the intersection of mental illness and Technical 4th Path: 1) The symptoms disappear entirely, or 2) The symptoms remain, but become much more workable. I correctly predicted that I would belong to the 2nd group.
By the end of April, I was in the thick of Review B, and had trouble discerning a single Insight Knowledge even after an hour of formal meditation. A familiar confusion ensued as I began to dip below the A&P throughout the day, indicating the system reboot seemed like it was almost over.
On the 11th of the month, it felt like a bubble of attention and clinging inside my skull cavity popped. The next day, I was standing in my backyard when an even bigger bubble extended from inside my torso, out of my body, to include the entire sense field. It felt very significant at the time. I couldn’t tell at the time, but this was the Technical 3rd Path moment.
I met with Ron on the 23rd, who said that I was exhibiting symptoms of Review A after I spent 45 minutes noting out loud for him. He guided me through soft or fabricated versions of the Formless and Pure Land Jhanas, which was a unique and powerful experience. My ability to “ride the jhanic arc” in a soft and fabricated way was greatly enhanced after the Technical 3rd Path event. I could access an equivalent version of “Nirodha Lite” as well.
Also, there was a slight upgrade in sensory clarity and a slight reduction in restlessness, as had been the case with the previous 2 shifts. Finally, the experience of Kundalini changed from being a tight, jarring series of shocks to a warm and wide flow up through the crown.
Ron explained to me that there are 2 possibilities with regards to the intersection of mental illness and Technical 4th Path: 1) The symptoms disappear entirely, or 2) The symptoms remain, but become much more workable. I correctly predicted that I would belong to the 2nd group.
By the end of April, I was in the thick of Review B, and had trouble discerning a single Insight Knowledge even after an hour of formal meditation. A familiar confusion ensued as I began to dip below the A&P throughout the day, indicating the system reboot seemed like it was almost over.
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