As I continued the mindfulness this month, the slight problemness of space (from last month) dissolved in a cessation & did not return. The sense of directional axes (i.e. facing forward) went away in one fell swoop, like the last bit of solid food being processed in a blender. It feels now like the blooming of cognizance is fused or molded into the space it occupies in a more refined manner that is less tainted by size & orientation. In general, the “noise volume” of the field has allowed me to tolerate negative emotions, physical pain & craving more effectively. This “noise volume” effect is continuing to cause consistent therapy-type shifts. Early knots being resolved, ever-increasing openness in relationships, self-acceptance & a good “letting go” cry here and there. These things really do seem to cause reductions in conventional tension which abide & stabilize, which is pretty cool. Particularly since that weird chest kriya fr...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.