In July, adulthood became more “real” as I solidified plans to move out of my parent’s house in NJ and into an apartment in Seattle, WA. In the meantime, I was working at a restaurant and doing a ton of off-cushion practice. Looking back, the Insight Knowledge fractal I went through during this period is very confusing. It seems that I had exhausted a wide range of techniques and investigations throughout June, and was basically cruising with a sense of boredom through the first half of July.
For much of the month, I practiced Shinzen’s “Do Nothing” technique via many short sits throughout the day. DhO participants had convinced me to relax my effort, and this is how I chose to do it. In truth, there was basically no chance that I would be capable of relaxing at this point.
On the 18th of the month, I was driving to work and had an odd series of energetic phenomena in my skull cavity. When I got to work and parked, I was thinking about the suffering characteristic of reality, and how I hoped to let life be inherently pleasurable at all times. An idea popped into my head; the stuff inside my body is the same as the stuff outside of it. The tension associated with fundamental duality arises out of a perceived dissonance between inside and outside. If I could let my inner field vibrate at the same frequency as the external field, like a tuning fork, then life really could be inherently pleasurable. There was a warm, shaking, pillow of energy that arose through my body. Then it felt like I released a large amount of psychic waste from my system. After this moment, everything became much more quiet.
I didn’t make much of this event (as I had been having a variety of weird, meditation effects at this time) until I met with Ron on the 23rd and he diagnosed it as Technical 4th Path. Four days later, I moved to Seattle.
For much of the month, I practiced Shinzen’s “Do Nothing” technique via many short sits throughout the day. DhO participants had convinced me to relax my effort, and this is how I chose to do it. In truth, there was basically no chance that I would be capable of relaxing at this point.
On the 18th of the month, I was driving to work and had an odd series of energetic phenomena in my skull cavity. When I got to work and parked, I was thinking about the suffering characteristic of reality, and how I hoped to let life be inherently pleasurable at all times. An idea popped into my head; the stuff inside my body is the same as the stuff outside of it. The tension associated with fundamental duality arises out of a perceived dissonance between inside and outside. If I could let my inner field vibrate at the same frequency as the external field, like a tuning fork, then life really could be inherently pleasurable. There was a warm, shaking, pillow of energy that arose through my body. Then it felt like I released a large amount of psychic waste from my system. After this moment, everything became much more quiet.
I didn’t make much of this event (as I had been having a variety of weird, meditation effects at this time) until I met with Ron on the 23rd and he diagnosed it as Technical 4th Path. Four days later, I moved to Seattle.
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