I want to make sure I note that at this phase of my life I was still very low functioning. I was protected by the fact that I was still living with my parents, working an unchallenging job, and connected to a network of high school and college friends. That being said, Technical 3rd Path was the first continuous and permanent relief I had ever had from bipolar symptoms. I was feeling motivated to live in healthier ways for the first time in my life.
Throughout June, I cycled through the Insight Knowledges in a very somatic or physio-energetic way. To compliment this, I did a ton of different types of philosophical inquiries into different aspects of experience. What had started as investigations into surrender in May were quickly evolving into the subject of a more pervasive nonduality.
For the first ten days of the month, I experienced an intense fractal of the 3rd and 4th Insight Knowledges. This seemed to do some heavy rewiring. Ron had told me that I would need to become familiar with all the Insight Knowledges, and this was coming to pass.
On June 13th, I had a sort of “near miss” of Technical 4th Path, which caused a stir on the DhO after I posted about it. This event left me basking in the cutting edge of High EQ for the rest of the month, even as I cycled through the Dukkha Nanas multiple times.
When I met with Ron again, he emphasized the importance of Grace and letting go. I seemed to be grasping at qualities that were beyond the cycles (and all the relative or mundane events at the Vipassana level of mind). Around this team, a variety of DhO yogis came out of the woodwork to encourage me to relax my intense approach to the path. Little did they (or I) know that such a perspective would remain unavailable to me despite many more months of intense practice.
Throughout June, I cycled through the Insight Knowledges in a very somatic or physio-energetic way. To compliment this, I did a ton of different types of philosophical inquiries into different aspects of experience. What had started as investigations into surrender in May were quickly evolving into the subject of a more pervasive nonduality.
For the first ten days of the month, I experienced an intense fractal of the 3rd and 4th Insight Knowledges. This seemed to do some heavy rewiring. Ron had told me that I would need to become familiar with all the Insight Knowledges, and this was coming to pass.
On June 13th, I had a sort of “near miss” of Technical 4th Path, which caused a stir on the DhO after I posted about it. This event left me basking in the cutting edge of High EQ for the rest of the month, even as I cycled through the Dukkha Nanas multiple times.
When I met with Ron again, he emphasized the importance of Grace and letting go. I seemed to be grasping at qualities that were beyond the cycles (and all the relative or mundane events at the Vipassana level of mind). Around this team, a variety of DhO yogis came out of the woodwork to encourage me to relax my intense approach to the path. Little did they (or I) know that such a perspective would remain unavailable to me despite many more months of intense practice.
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