At the start of 2015, I was still working at the restaurant. I had finally finished college. Pressure to leave my parent’s house was mounting. I was planning a move from NJ to Seattle, WA, where my high school friend was already living. By late December of 2014, High EQ was getting very intense and trippy. I had been navigating the sub-stages of the 11th Nana for six months, noting all day, every day. I was having weird, sexually charged visions. Random, seemingly alien beliefs were popping up out of nowhere. I experienced the peak of these things as I spent New Years in Niagara Falls. Although I hadn’t gotten SE yet, I resolved to get as much progress along the insight access as possible, within the year. At the beginning of 2014, I had resolved for SE within 12 months. Coincidentally, it did happen 3 days after New Years. I was talking to my Mom about meditation while sitting with my eyes closed. I was trying this need ...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.