The shift from last month seemed to sublimate or become absorbed into a new normal over a period of a couple weeks. The insights & “point” of it are still present, but the obvious collapsing & bending of space is not happening. What has become more important is to relax into whatever types of perception are revealing themselves at a given time, including the various flavors of nonduality & centerlessness. I think this transition away from “perception itself” & more into “my relationship with perception” is probably the most important February practice event. I’m gradually letting go of the idea that there is some hyper-esoteric new layer to practice that will reveal itself after the culminating shift that occurred last summer. Points from session with spiritual friend: confirmed my approaches to sexual energy with the visualized consort are correct; encouraging me to bring more imaginal, magickal elements into practice to allow for higher identity form...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.