At the beginning of August, I had just started living in Seattle with my friend from high school, and working with him on a daytime tour boat. The after effects of Technical 4th Path were clear: an increase in sensory clarity, a decrease in the hindrances, and a dropping of the subtle tension associated with artificial duality. While this realization was with me all the time, it was peripheral or intuitive in nature. After Ron diagnosed me at technical 4th path in late July, I decided to try Actualism practice, as was my plan all along. This decision was based on the idea that Actual Freedom is the next “level” after technical 4th path. Furthermore, I was determined to go to the source of the method (the Actual Freedom Trust and Actualism Yahoo Group) and attempt it as the founders intended, rather than fusing it with Buddhism, as other had done. Writing this 13 months later, I can see how deeply flawed all of this reasoning was. Although I no longe...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.