My gut told me a new season of insight practice was coming. I started to investigate time, after encouragement from a friend. This led to some new perceptions, which I shared with my spiritual friend, who in turn assigned me some new insight practices that I have been waiting for a long period to receive. My spiritual friend remarked that I have been very patient & I felt like a new set of possibilities had opened up. I began to practice these intensively off-cushion, as I tend to do. First exploring a type of vipassana for several days, then moving into the space or ground of each sense door, then noticing that the sense doors are actually all fused together in one. These are all deepenings of things I already have & the last one felt poignant. I spent hours just “mushing” panoramic-vision & support-of-earth together, or body-as-whole & silence-between-sounds together. There were several “micro shifts” as these things clic...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.