I didn’t take very good notes this month so I suppose I’ll just write from where I am. There was quite a bit of insomnia. I’m going back on a medication for it that I have been off of for about eight months or so. It was a point of pride for me that I got off of it, but perhaps it is biological after all. I’ve tried quite a few ‘natural’ methods to treat it and none of them worked for longer than two weeks. It’s an odd thing. I’m certainly not too ‘awakened’ to have insomnia or a host of other obstacles. I smoked MJ for the first time in a couple of years. It is legal where I live and I was trying it as a last-ditch effort for the insomnia. A side effect was a strikingly high degree of paranoia and anxiety, which is how it has affected me historically. I then did it a second time to purposely work with that negative energy. There was high resolution and lucidity around my own self-critical and self-conscious, potential pa...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.