This was a month of integration. The recent perceptual shifts have remained. The nootropic I started last month has continued to yield great benefits. I started re-cultivating healthy habits such as diet, exercise, cleaning, gratitude statements, qigong and consuming quality media. I have also restarted reading a bit of the pali canon every day. My job has provided me ample shaky ground to work with. From what I can tell, morality is about the union of discipline and pleasure. It is the way of acting appropriately in all situations, independent of egoic push-pull (while still connecting deeply with all aspects of humanness). It arises from a very deep grokking of what gives rise to stress on all levels and what gives rise to happiness on all levels. The commitment shifts from the former to the latter through the gradual process of sub-mind conversion. I was able to confirm with Dhammarato that I am getting closer to 10 fetter stre...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.