Another month of integration. I kept practicing a technique I thought of at Amma’s last month. It involved fusing my libido energy with the object of the energy. The implementation was similar to the 3 steps of the perfect parent technique. I belief that about five days of doing it produced a ‘micro-shift’ in that I now feel more balance & less impulse within my lower chakras. Out of that, I have noticed a dramatic decrease in barriers to romantic connection. I’m able to more skillfully express my interest in potential partners very easily. I am working on expanding that expression. I also got off of seroquel, which I have been using to fall asleep for the past nine years of my life. I was doing Reggie Ray’s somatic descent practice one night & noticed that it relaxed my body. The next night, I skipped the seroquel & relied totally on the somatic practice. After a week, I was able to fall asleep withou...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.