To start, some notes on daily life: I got converted from contractor to FTE in my current job, which is a huge relief (job security) & allowed me to focus on practice much more. I also started daily spiritual mind treatments for physical health, career, finance & social wellbeing. In the last 10 days of the month, I began to try a neurogenerative nootropic with promising, healing benefits. I also wanted to add this in at the beginning to avoid this entry looking to much like a brag sheet - I had plenty of agitation, anxiety, restlessness, mania, narcissistic tendencies & other defilements come up this month (as in all other months). I’m still on low levels of two mood stabilizers and struggle with medicating myself through other means such as stress eating. That being said, I started hosting daylong retreats at my house with the SPUDS. We do this schedule twice: 3 hour-long sits, separated by 2 15-minute walks. The total practice ti...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.