In July, adulthood became more “real” as I solidified plans to move out of my parent’s house in NJ and into an apartment in Seattle, WA. In the meantime, I was working at a restaurant and doing a ton of off-cushion practice. Looking back, the Insight Knowledge fractal I went through during this period is very confusing. It seems that I had exhausted a wide range of techniques and investigations throughout June, and was basically cruising with a sense of boredom through the first half of July. For much of the month, I practiced Shinzen’s “Do Nothing” technique via many short sits throughout the day. DhO participants had convinced me to relax my effort, and this is how I chose to do it. In truth, there was basically no chance that I would be capable of relaxing at this point. On the 18th of the month, I was driving to work and had an odd series of energetic phenomena in my skull cavity. When I got to work and parked, I was thinking about t...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.