At the beginning of the month, I had various psychological insights, energetic experiences & perceptual explorations. I think none of these have stuck around. The following types of progress from last month have continued: some depression has gone, unskillful lust has reduced, my heart is more open, chores are easier to do. I think my detachment is developing. I feel a new sense of total-view on samsara. My entire motivational structure & identity, including all of my memories from this life, are a part of the conditioned existence which is subject to impermanence, not self & suffering. All large & small things are a part of this, on all levels. The perceptual field feels completely open & unidentifed between reference points but I’m sure more nondualities will reveal themselves over time. There is a new sense of utterly not engaging with the vast clarity it provides. Furthermore, I can see more easily which goals ...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.