In January, I continued with the formal practice from prior months, including the refuge, qigong & trul khor movements, chanting, prayers, guru yoga, breath focus, tummo, thigle breathing & dedication (a 1.5 hours sequence). I continued to notice the range of experiences & sensations that arise within the tummo practice day over day, with less overall amplitude when physical energy is higher (cardio capacity) & also a steadily increasing comfort with the edge of retention over time. Additionally, I continued to find the right balance between image & tactile sensation (real & imagined) in creating the experience of the fire. Related to this, I started to feel that my potential with the practice would hit a ceiling due to lack of concentration ability. There were some modifications I made to my formal practice sequence throughout the month. I stopped doing the horse stance/qigong & savasana after realizing those technique...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.