In May, my on cushion practice was calm abiding on the breath & a pranayama technique I got from a book called “Mohini Vidya Sadhana & Siddhi.” The pranayama practice makes me feel really energetically durable in the face of external pressures. I’ll be excited to see where it goes. I had a session with my spiritual friend where they recommended I study Ayurveda. This sent me into a perfectionistic tailspin followed by a deeper sense of surrender into the wholeness of life. We also discussed general development & integration & that it is important that I nail down my conventional life stuff while young before I become more awakened so that I don’t become an unintegrated S.O.B. like many of those marred by scandal. My off cushion practice has centered on going beyond phenomenology (description in terms of color, shape, texture, frame rate, proprioception, chronoception, etc) & into levels of knowing that are independent of anything I co...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.