The insomnia cure continued from August. I also got off my other medication this month, accomplishing a goal I’ve been working towards since starting this path in 2013. I felt a mild uptick in grumpiness in the first couple weeks, but then that went away & I didn’t feel any different from being on the meds. I started using light therapy & melatonin (low dose, early) to further optimize my sleep, increase daytime energy & decrease lingering irritation. Energy from the light allowed reduced caffeine intake. Things have been very slow moving around ‘getting things done.’ In a debate with my newer mentor, I concluded that nondual perception won’t fix my aversion & there is no replacement for executive functioning. I was able to do chores slightly more consistently & narrowed down my recurring task list, but still feel obstacles around motivation, time & energy. I obsessed a lot around dating & psychology stuff. Als...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.