In July I started hiking and I began to look at other things I could do with my time & energy. Over the past few months I had become increasingly productive and was finding menial everyday tasks easier. I also analyzed some of the ways I wish for automaticity of habits and how that can be limiting. The results from my neurotransmitter test in July represented a major perspective shift and a revived sense of faith & inspiration in the meditative path. Since my happy chemicals were so low and I wasn’t on medication at all, the only way to explain how I had become increasingly high functioning over the past few years was contemplative development. The naturopath gave me amino acids precursors for serotonin and gaba. I felt the effects in the first few days. They seemed to work better than previous times I had taken aminos, presumably because of the more expensive/fancy formulas from the particular brands. Based on this confidence, I began to practice open awareness...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.