As a meta-note about this log, I am noticing my tendency towards longer entries with an emphasis on study & theory lately. I don’t want to leave the specifics out because forming my paradigm is a key overall part of my path, even if not about direct meditation experience. Also, as my practice has matured, the need for better conceptual knowledge has arisen. For on-cushion in December, I gathered the tummo “hacks” from various retreats in a list to get a better overview & select what works for me. Specific additions included envisioning/feeling the heat spread throughout & toroidally around the body; playing with actual vs imagined heat; learning to balance emphasis on seeing vs feeling heat; shaking & covering sense organs to help move bliss around. A note from one of the retreats that the white thigle bliss should not overpower the fire motivated me to further bolster my heat development. I had some interesting experiences, rangi...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.