I met again with my spiritual friend & continued to notice a contrast between their more integral approach & my increasingly traditional dharmic approach. I began to research how to formally take refuge. I pondered what this means & how it fits in with my previous eclectic, pan-mystical perspective. I pondered how detachment can be applied to my traditional dharma studies. I continued studying the Lam Rim, weaving other aspects of ‘integral’ & ‘pragmatic dharma’ into the LR framework. I continued to feel irritated/disturbed by my work promotion being delayed, although pondering it helped to deepen detachment & my Lam Rim studies. These studies also focused on karma & having a healthy sense of self at the initial scope of dharma. I also continued to study Buddhist cosmology, finding some logical proofs (karma = idealist proof, rebirth = realist proof) that were helpful. I increased some of the existing supplements...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.