Note: I also had another huge perceptual shift, which I describe at the bottom of this log . One thing I forgot to mention about last month is that I had 5 nightmares in a row at one point, but this effect has not continued (I don’t usually remember my dreams). As mentioned at the end of my previous log, I switched to imagining humans only throughout this month. I began to explore the 3rd phase of the technique, which is to perfect parent all beings. I imagined lots of loving hugs, kisses, attending to different people, attending to all people, etc. I had some powerful visuals & energetics at times. I then discovered the “logic” of the 2nd phase (become the perfect parent): if I can powerfully imagine that I am the child of these beings, then I do not have any bad karma, trauma, blockages, etc. How does that feel in my body and mind? That became the 2nd phase. I began to rotate between the 1st, 2nd & 3rd phases, doing one ...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.