My new set of tools had allowed me to apply for a variety of HR positions throughout January and February. By March, I was in an unpaid internship, which was an important stepping stone. At least I was no longer "frozen." At the beginning of March, I realized that the primary arena for the Anapanasati is off the cushion, not on. While on-cushion practice is like the gym, off-cushion is applying that strength for life tasks. For three weeks, I was inspired by Culadasa’s The Mind Illuminated, and tried to develop stabilized, continuous breath focus off-cushion. It ended up causing more hindrances than it reduced, but it was a worthwhile experiment. I started to integrate Richard’s explanations of Supramundane Right View into my practice paradigms. Right View is to have no views. Right Morality is to have no artificial rules, but instead to always respond to actual causes and conditions, and target optimal effects based on them. This helped supp...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.