In September, I continued to practice the Actualism method. The positive elements of my efforts all involved forms of investigation which I would continue when I returned to Buddhist practice: libido, deep seated restlessness, social conventions, ill will, etc. I was able to make a positive change externally by moving from my job on a daytime tour boat, to more familiar work as a bartender. I continued to struggle with the insomnia, depression and isolation related to trying to “make it” in a new city. There was an obvious lack of direction and the tools to make meaningful change in my life. I met with Ron Crouch to review the results of my work with him. He confirmed that the July 2015 event was Technical 4th Path, but that it can be experienced in a variety of different ways. I got in arguments on the DhO with multiple people about the relevance of this shift, given that I was still experiencing so many problems. What it seemed to high...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.