This was a big month for practice. I’m grateful to have had another opening that seems at least as impactful as the previous 4 shifts that I’ve experienced. Various aspects of the sensory field became more clear though off-cushion investigation over the course of 4 weeks, starting July 23rd. My current experience is a lot different than before. The sense of processing from within the body is greatly reduced, and the sense of being ‘out there’ with the field has been enhanced. The internal world also is greatly freed to just be itself and bear its own significance in the psychic space. Emotional tenor has improved with spaciousness and increased sampling rate of surrender. The beauty of life is obvious and in my face. As an alternate description, there is a sense of floating consciousness not necessarily confined to time and space. Access to this quality of experience seems to greatly reduce the basic pain of ‘being here’ that I've strugg...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.