In November, my on cushion practice was samatha, tummo & thigle breathing, in a cycle (in addition to other preliminaries at the start). I noticed a strong feedback loop between them, as the tummo would create the necessary basis of heat & openness for thigle breathing, which would in turn would create a platform of bliss for the calmness of mind in samatha. Off the cushion, I continued with the lust circulation practice recommended by my spiritual friend & found that it was helping clear deeper layers of tension & resistance. It helped to relate this experience to the 4 levels of tantra & how they map on to increasing intimacy. In our meeting this month, my spiritual friend explained that as I strengthen my solar plexus chakra (sense of self) via the fuel of the sex chakra, the heart chakra will naturally open. This led to a few days of exaggerated bliss throughout the day, which was likely just an a&p phase influenced by pract...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.