I keep having what I call “micro-shifts” through the off-cushion investigations I’ve been doing lately. These are not as significant as noticeable path shifts, yet I do feel something dislodge inside and it does not return. The practices I’ve been doing are basically my own inventions but are inspired by bits and pieces of Mahamudra that I’ve assembled through talking to students, reading books and watching videos. I admire this tradition for its ability to discriminate between different levels of awareness and different qualities within a given level. Most of my “meditation-proper” recently has been around investigating a given quality off the cushion. On cushion practice is more of an exercise in grounding and patience for me, whereas off cushion is where things get “deep.” That being the case, this month it felt like there were the following “micro-shifts:” Time → timelessness/eternality Separation/distance to objects in field → luminosity/kno...
At the intersection of deep meditation, growing up, and mood disorder.